Record Company Rejection

So everyone says “rejection is part of the business”… whatever you’re going into. I did absolutely NOTHING this break, even limited socializing, because I’m so worn out and needed a HUGE break. I’ve never applied for things before besides my job at the skate shop (and please, like that wasn’t guaranteed), and I doubt the economy is helpful, so I’ve felt a little rejected lately too. But I randomly found this song and the story behind it. A record company decide they don’t like a singer’s style and demand a marketable single. The artist gets mad and the new angry song becomes a huge hit. Sound familiar? I’m not talking about “Love Song”. I’m talking about “Grace Kelly” by Mika, my new obsession.

Two Songs, Same Story.

Lines that get stuck in your head

Well, Miss B. did something really stupid the other day… she thought her class was at a different time, so she missed it! She said she was really embarrassed because now the professor knows her name and he doesn’t know anyone else’s name. But apparently he seems understanding. That is her Honors II class, and I am in the other one on Monday-Wednesday-Friday. I’m not really sure why I signed up for that one because I don’t have a lunch those days, but I like my teacher. Professor. I always forget to call them professors, unless I am talking to them, in which I call them Dr. ____.

Today in Creative Writing, we were talking about why we like writing, and what inspires us to write. I took that class because you have to have a writing class for pre-med, and everyone says comp sucks. Since I’m in honors it was OK to skip comp and take an upper-level course, and I think it will still count. Miss B. is an English major, so she bypasses any pre-med writing requirements. Well anyway, one person said they hear certain lines of lyrics, or a snippet of conversation, and those things stick in their head and they feel like they need to work them into their writing or come up with something similar. Usually for something to get stuck in my head, it has to have a good snippet of melody too. I don’t think I’ve ever heard something someone said that stuck in my head like that, unless it was a compliment I wanted to write down (like from Coach OH!), or a funny joke. So I guess I have! Anyway I kept racking my brain for what line I’d been repeating constantly, and I was just like… duh! “I know better not to be friends with boys with girlfriends, oh, I know better than that, I know better./You be the victim and I’ll play the bad guy, yeah I know better than that, I know better.” I’m like obsessed with that song.

Do you have any lines rolling around in your head right now? Miss B. said when “Love Song” came out, she stopped counting how many times in a row she listened to it at 30. She just couldn’t stop singing the refrain and thinking about what a unique idea it was.

Baby’s getting next to nowhere with her back against the wall

I feel like I’ve been keeping myself back. I keep talking about how I’m not sure how great I am, and that I don’t know whether I can make it to the Olympics after taking off about half a year of skating. And yes, it’s natural to doubt yourself, but I also think I’ve been believing it. It’s so easy to think, oh, no this success isn’t real. I’m not worth that much. And once you start thinking that, you start believing it. And I feel like coming up to Grand Prix, I’ve been pretty down about skating. I haven’t thought I’d get this far and that doubt has stayed with me, even though I beat out every other female figure skater in the United States. I still doubt. And I know I’m limiting myself. I’m not trying harder routines and I’m sticking with the normal. I’m not feeling totally confident before routines because I know I haven’t challenged myself and so truly I am not doing my best.
That’s gonna change. Fo’ sho’.

New Theme!

I thought I’d change it up a bit and go with a new theme. This one makes it look like I write more ;) I’m not totally sure if I like it yet, so I might still be going with a new one. I googled tons of WP themes and finally found one that I like, only to discover you have to pay to customize your own theme! Ugh! Well, whatever. I liked the green girl one, but honestly it made my posts look super short, and I was looking for something different. I’m also totally procrastinating some of the reading I have to get done for OWT. It’s a sorority-type thing, right? Or so I thought. We have some required reading, namely, The Confessions of St. Augustine, because most of the girls are reading that now and oh, wouldn’t it be fun if everyone did? No seriously. That’s what I was told. Please. I guess it’s not totally a sorority because it’s based on honors and there aren’t tons of people in one place so you only get together on the holidays… but still. Mom thinks it’s a good thing that we have required reading, of course! Oh, and I’m getting ready for (drumroll) Grand Prix! YES!
WP also changed their editing layout. I like it now that I’m used to it. I am sometimes not a huge fan of change, but it at least looks nicer now. Haha.
I am also counting down the days until I get to go to Paris! I’m so excited that it’s really not funny. My mom’s like, but you get to compete in South Korea… hell no, Paris is fifty times cooler! And I can actually tour (if we do, which I’m hoping and really assuming we will), not compete. I want to meet everyone. And I kinda want to get away from ME and all its boringness and doctorness. Yes, I just made that word up. I am excited to start college though not the work. It’s been nice having the past year off from schoolwork. Mom thinks this has totally ruined me forever. Whatever, I’m sure I’ll cope.
Ingrid came out with a lovely new video also starring Sara Bareilles. My two favorites. You can see the “Winter Song” vid here:
http://www.people.com/people/article/0,,20244199,00.html
SOOOOOOOO cute!!

Hmm… what’s going on?

Absolutely nothing. I’m getting ready for Nationals and GRAND PRIX IN KOREA!!!!! but that is seriously about it. I’ve been feeling kind-of tired lately and Mom is really concerned, but I think it’s still just skating stuff, and I’ve been going to bed really late.
I’ve been listening to Sara Bareilles. I love “Fairytale” and “Love Song”. Both are very badass if you do excuse my language.
I am getting VERY excited about Paris. I can barely contain myself!! What if we get to see the Eiffel Tower?! Oh, I would be so happy… I can’t wait… I’ve been out of the country but never to France! I can’t wait to meet everyone too! I am sure they will all love me…
This was a total crap post. I promise I will have a story or at least an insightful one soon. Thanksgiving was good, CHRISTMAS WILL BE BETTER BECAUSE IT WILL BE IN PARIS.